{"id":477,"date":"2026-06-11T11:25:59","date_gmt":"2026-06-11T11:25:59","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/selaheddinbiyani.com.tr\/?p=477"},"modified":"2026-06-11T11:39:24","modified_gmt":"2026-06-11T11:39:24","slug":"sayiklamalar-iv","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/selaheddinbiyani.com.tr\/index.php\/2026\/06\/11\/sayiklamalar-iv\/","title":{"rendered":"S(ay\u0131klamalar)\u2026 (IV)"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"500\" height=\"333\" src=\"https:\/\/selaheddinbiyani.com.tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/wordpress_cok_kucuk_1.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-478\" srcset=\"https:\/\/selaheddinbiyani.com.tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/wordpress_cok_kucuk_1.jpg 500w, https:\/\/selaheddinbiyani.com.tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/wordpress_cok_kucuk_1-300x200.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 500px) 100vw, 500px\" \/><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Kendi \u00fczerine s\u0131k\u0131ca kapanm\u0131\u015f olan ve benim bir hikayem yok diye ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131p duran o ya\u015fl\u0131 a\u011fa\u00e7, sessizlik melankolik bir bilgedir demi\u015fti bir g\u00fcn\u2026&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ben kederin co\u011frafyas\u0131nda ilerledik\u00e7e kendimi yeniden kurdum ama kendimi kendimden eksilterek\u2026 Durmadan yinelenen o u\u011fultunun i\u00e7inde tekrar etti\u011fim hi\u00e7bir \u015feyin yank\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 duymad\u0131m, y\u0131llard\u0131r bilmeden katland\u0131\u011f\u0131m o titre\u015fimleri saymazsak\u2026&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bir tek sessizlikte y\u00fcr\u00fcyebildim izlerin i\u00e7inde ve izler de benim i\u00e7imde. O y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015flerin hi\u00e7birinde ilerlemedim, izler beni ta\u015f\u0131mad\u0131 ama \u00e7o\u011faltt\u0131 ve \u00e7o\u011fald\u0131k\u00e7a daha \u00e7ok silindim. \u00dczerinden atlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, g\u00f6rmezden geldi\u011fim, yok sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131m ne varsa birer yar\u0131k gibi sabitlendi kalbimin tam ortas\u0131na. Sonra o ya\u015fl\u0131 a\u011fa\u00e7&nbsp;<em>\u2018ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f yoktur, ertelenmi\u015f temaslar vard\u0131r\u2019<\/em>&nbsp;diye kula\u011f\u0131ma f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131 bir gece\u2026&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c7ivi \u00e7iviyi s\u00f6ker sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z o kasaba ekonomisinde \u00e7ivi ba\u015fka \u00e7iviyi s\u00f6kmez, \u00e7iviler sadece birikir! Etimize de\u011fil belki ama zamana \u00e7ak\u0131l\u0131r her biri. Ki zaman delindik\u00e7e bir yere akmaz, daha da yo\u011funla\u015f\u0131r. Ben y\u0131llarca pa\u00e7alar\u0131mdan akan o birikmi\u015f zaman\u0131 kan sand\u0131m oysa! Ki bo\u015fluk bo\u015flukla dolmuyor \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc hi\u00e7bir bo\u015fluk bir eksiklik de\u011fildir, bir ta\u015fma halidir asl\u0131nda. Sen onu doldurmak isterken o seni kendi i\u00e7ine al\u0131p dolar. T\u0131pk\u0131 y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn yolun bir y\u00f6n g\u00f6stermemesi gibi. Bir ormana \u00e7\u0131kar yolun \u00f6rne\u011fin ve asl\u0131nda o orman d\u0131\u015far\u0131da de\u011fildir, senin i\u00e7inde b\u00fcy\u00fcyen bir labirenttir. \u0130\u015fte o y\u00fczden insan y\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc de\u011fil y\u00f6ns\u00fczl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7o\u011faltabilir en fazla.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bizim yan\u0131m\u0131za al\u0131p y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz b\u00fct\u00fcn o aptall\u0131klar, zaaflar, aza d\u00fc\u015fmeler, zehir sa\u00e7an k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck burjuval\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z birer y\u00fck de\u011fil asl\u0131nda birer stratejidir. Kendini kafadan ayaklara do\u011fru \u00f6rg\u00fctlemenin, kendini eksiltmenin de\u011fil \u00e7o\u011faltman\u0131n stratejisidir bu. \u0130nsan\u0131 di\u011fer canl\u0131lardan ay\u0131ran ba\u015fat \u00f6zellik sahtekarl\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r!&nbsp;&nbsp;Y\u00fckselerek de\u011fil kendi i\u00e7ine \u00e7\u00f6kerek derinle\u015febilece\u011fini anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn o sahtekarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir nebze d\u00fczeltebilir belki\u2026 Ben y\u0131llarca tarihin o sinsi kahkahas\u0131n\u0131 bizimle bir dalga ge\u00e7i\u015f sand\u0131m. Oysa o kahkaha bir ritimdir, seni kendine uyduran, seni durmadan tekrar ettiren bir ritim..<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0130nsan\u0131n kendisiyle giri\u015fti\u011fi hi\u00e7bir kanl\u0131 d\u00fcellosu yoktur. Hatta d\u00fcello sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yerde asl\u0131nda kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131zda kimseler yoktur, salt varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdan ba\u015fka! Kur\u015funu s\u0131kan da hedef olan da biziz. Ki mesele, burada \u00f6lmek de\u011fildir. Kendini vura vura daha hassas bir hedefe d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmektir. Kendine daha iyi yenilmeyi \u00f6\u011frenmek insan\u0131n \u015fu ya\u015famda kendini en iyi \u00f6rg\u00fctledi\u011fi ve ustala\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 e\u015fiktir.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Y\u00fczle\u015fme demi\u015fsin! O y\u00fczle\u015fmede par\u0131ldayan \u015feyin hakikat oldu\u011funu san\u0131rs\u0131n ama o sadece travmatik bir kurgudur.&nbsp;&nbsp;Kendine bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n her an kendini yeniden yazars\u0131n ya, onun gibi i\u015fte. Personan\u0131n kendisi de personan\u0131n ard\u0131ndaki de bir bo\u015flu\u011fa tutunmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r ve o bo\u015flu\u011fa s\u0131k\u0131ca tutunduk\u00e7a daha \u00e7ok yalana ve sahte hakikatlere ba\u015fvurur. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o bir kurgu ustas\u0131d\u0131r! Bu noktada beden, bedenin kudreti ve onun uzam\u0131 olan do\u011fan\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda tutunmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n her \u015fey bir yan\u0131lsamad\u0131r! \u0130nsan\u0131n en beyhude yaras\u0131 ben diye sabitlenen bir \u015feyin olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 anda ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kederdir! \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ben, yoktur!&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Kendi \u00fczerine s\u0131k\u0131ca kapanm\u0131\u015f olan ve benim bir hikayem yok diye ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131p duran o ya\u015fl\u0131 a\u011fa\u00e7, sessizlik melankolik bir bilgedir demi\u015fti bir g\u00fcn\u2026&nbsp; Ben kederin co\u011frafyas\u0131nda ilerledik\u00e7e kendimi yeniden kurdum ama kendimi kendimden eksilterek\u2026 Durmadan yinelenen o u\u011fultunun i\u00e7inde tekrar etti\u011fim hi\u00e7bir \u015feyin yank\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 duymad\u0131m, y\u0131llard\u0131r bilmeden katland\u0131\u011f\u0131m o titre\u015fimleri saymazsak\u2026&nbsp; Bir tek sessizlikte y\u00fcr\u00fcyebildim izlerin i\u00e7inde ve izler de benim i\u00e7imde. O y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015flerin hi\u00e7birinde ilerlemedim, izler beni ta\u015f\u0131mad\u0131 ama \u00e7o\u011faltt\u0131 ve \u00e7o\u011fald\u0131k\u00e7a daha \u00e7ok silindim. \u00dczerinden atlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, g\u00f6rmezden geldi\u011fim, yok sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131m ne varsa birer yar\u0131k gibi sabitlendi kalbimin tam ortas\u0131na. Sonra o ya\u015fl\u0131 a\u011fa\u00e7&nbsp;\u2018ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f yoktur, ertelenmi\u015f temaslar vard\u0131r\u2019&nbsp;diye kula\u011f\u0131ma f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131 bir gece\u2026&nbsp; \u00c7ivi \u00e7iviyi s\u00f6ker sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z o kasaba ekonomisinde \u00e7ivi ba\u015fka \u00e7iviyi s\u00f6kmez, \u00e7iviler sadece birikir! Etimize de\u011fil belki ama zamana \u00e7ak\u0131l\u0131r her biri. Ki zaman delindik\u00e7e bir yere akmaz, daha da yo\u011funla\u015f\u0131r. Ben y\u0131llarca pa\u00e7alar\u0131mdan akan o birikmi\u015f zaman\u0131 kan sand\u0131m oysa! Ki bo\u015fluk bo\u015flukla dolmuyor \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc hi\u00e7bir bo\u015fluk bir eksiklik de\u011fildir, bir ta\u015fma halidir asl\u0131nda. Sen onu doldurmak isterken o seni kendi i\u00e7ine al\u0131p dolar. T\u0131pk\u0131 y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn yolun bir y\u00f6n g\u00f6stermemesi gibi. Bir ormana \u00e7\u0131kar yolun \u00f6rne\u011fin ve asl\u0131nda o orman d\u0131\u015far\u0131da de\u011fildir, senin i\u00e7inde b\u00fcy\u00fcyen bir labirenttir. \u0130\u015fte o y\u00fczden insan y\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc de\u011fil y\u00f6ns\u00fczl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7o\u011faltabilir en fazla.&nbsp; Bizim yan\u0131m\u0131za al\u0131p y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz b\u00fct\u00fcn o aptall\u0131klar, zaaflar, aza d\u00fc\u015fmeler, zehir sa\u00e7an k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck burjuval\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z birer y\u00fck de\u011fil asl\u0131nda birer stratejidir. Kendini kafadan ayaklara do\u011fru \u00f6rg\u00fctlemenin, kendini eksiltmenin de\u011fil \u00e7o\u011faltman\u0131n stratejisidir bu. \u0130nsan\u0131 di\u011fer canl\u0131lardan ay\u0131ran ba\u015fat \u00f6zellik sahtekarl\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r!&nbsp;&nbsp;Y\u00fckselerek de\u011fil kendi i\u00e7ine \u00e7\u00f6kerek derinle\u015febilece\u011fini anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn o sahtekarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir nebze d\u00fczeltebilir belki\u2026 Ben y\u0131llarca tarihin o sinsi kahkahas\u0131n\u0131 bizimle bir dalga ge\u00e7i\u015f sand\u0131m. Oysa o kahkaha bir ritimdir, seni kendine uyduran, seni durmadan tekrar ettiren bir ritim.. \u0130nsan\u0131n kendisiyle giri\u015fti\u011fi hi\u00e7bir kanl\u0131 d\u00fcellosu yoktur. Hatta d\u00fcello sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yerde asl\u0131nda kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131zda kimseler yoktur, salt varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdan ba\u015fka! Kur\u015funu s\u0131kan da hedef olan da biziz. Ki mesele, burada \u00f6lmek de\u011fildir. Kendini vura vura daha hassas bir hedefe d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmektir. Kendine daha iyi yenilmeyi \u00f6\u011frenmek insan\u0131n \u015fu ya\u015famda kendini en iyi \u00f6rg\u00fctledi\u011fi ve ustala\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 e\u015fiktir.&nbsp; Y\u00fczle\u015fme demi\u015fsin! O y\u00fczle\u015fmede par\u0131ldayan \u015feyin hakikat oldu\u011funu san\u0131rs\u0131n ama o sadece travmatik bir kurgudur.&nbsp;&nbsp;Kendine bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n her an kendini yeniden yazars\u0131n ya, onun gibi i\u015fte. Personan\u0131n kendisi de personan\u0131n ard\u0131ndaki de bir bo\u015flu\u011fa tutunmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r ve o bo\u015flu\u011fa s\u0131k\u0131ca tutunduk\u00e7a daha \u00e7ok yalana ve sahte hakikatlere ba\u015fvurur. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o bir kurgu ustas\u0131d\u0131r! Bu noktada beden, bedenin kudreti ve onun uzam\u0131 olan do\u011fan\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda tutunmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n her \u015fey bir yan\u0131lsamad\u0131r! \u0130nsan\u0131n en beyhude yaras\u0131 ben diye sabitlenen bir \u015feyin olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 anda ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kederdir! \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ben, yoktur!&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"iawp_total_views":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-477","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-sopa-hunere"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/selaheddinbiyani.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/477","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/selaheddinbiyani.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/selaheddinbiyani.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/selaheddinbiyani.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/selaheddinbiyani.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=477"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/selaheddinbiyani.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/477\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":479,"href":"https:\/\/selaheddinbiyani.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/477\/revisions\/479"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/selaheddinbiyani.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=477"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/selaheddinbiyani.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=477"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/selaheddinbiyani.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=477"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}